A Taste of Mortality

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ATOM: Do Not Turn Back – II

Gravir Markon took the news with pressed teeth and keys. Keys to the basement.

Iron was forbidden, just at rowan, which still rose under the snow, dry and almost dead, but still able to weaken the fey spells. That’s why people in Vennklan Valley dug the vast cellars, in case faeries felt especially hungry. Their keys and pots, even weapons, were made of bronze. But deep under the rooms, deep under the foundations, even deeper, in the soil, villagers were keeping iron – ultimate weapon against a deadly glamour.

Tiyan observed how his father walks down, and brings back knives and nails, even a hatchet.

“Nothing is immortal, even if it claims so” he said, his eyes looking like sunken, black bruise-like smudges under them. Tiyan didn’t know if Gravir’s readiness to fight at all cost worried him or filled him with hope.

His mother still kept company with Mina, who eventually fell asleep. Her feet were still cold, but slowly warming up, lips stopped having almost blue color.

“And what if they won’t come tonight?” expressed his worry Tiyan. Faeries were unpredictable. Maybe they had enough for now. Maybe… maybe Tiyan just tried to push back the fact that it won’t end, even if they resign. They will be an easy prey, they had whole life of Tiyan on their plate, since he shared the mind with them. Most villagers would just give themselves into their hands, if they promised them quick death. But now, Tiyan knew – if you fight, you may die. But if you don’t – you lose your soul.

Which didn’t belong to him anymore.

“They will come tonight, or tomorrow’s night, or a day after tomorrow” Gravir put his sharp equipment on the table, all in one place. “But they won’t harm Mina again” his gaze slid over Tiyan’s frame. “And they won’t harm you.”

Tiyan felt a pang of shame, but decided to wash it away, acting, putting himself to use.

They both went out, putting hard iron nails into the wooden walls, to stop them from using the house as a trap. Snow was hiding the ones that they stuck in the backyard and before the front door. The rowan branches were pushed into the windows.

As they worked, they heard how Alina starts to sign. Tiyan didn’t recognize the sad, almost painful song, but Gravir’s eyes watered down, not much, only a bit, but enough to make him pretended it was caused by the wind. Tiyan smiled. Bittersweet. A song they both knew, but he didn’t. A song from the long gone past. They were in so many places before he was born. Alina was coming from a city, on the south. Gravir took her on the travel through whole Avras, they saw not only deep mountains, but the Marcen lakes on the north and capital of the land, with  the battlements of the academy towering above the huge city – a place where one could just disappear for days and still not see one hundredth percent of the book collection.

That was before. Befote Unseelie turned their eyes on them.

Before… Tiyan.

Now, the academy was in ruins and the city captured by winter and fear. No more happy songs. Only songs that cause eyes to water – like the wind.

When they finished, Gravir sat in the armless chair just between the closed door and the table and put the iron hatchet on his knee. Tiyan knew that he will sit here like that, until they won’t come. And if they won’t come, he will attract them, like hunters attract prey.

With himself as a bait.

This all seemed madness. No one fought the fey and won. They were too numerous and their spells were too strong. But a hope entered his heart, strange hope, bittersweet like the song Alina was singing. Tiyan sat in the chair under the window and looked through it outside. The chair slowly creeked while he was leaning on the windowsill. The snow was falling, covering everything with additional white.

White like marble. And like a sign of peace, a hopefull banner.

Snow.

Burying them all under the thick blanket of silence.

*

Tiyan realized that the fireplace burned out, and the room was enveloped in darkness. Mina and Alina disappeared, deep in the house. He had to sleep, he didn’t know how long. But his father was still sitting in the chair and his eyes were glowing with strange white in the dim blackness.

“How—”

Gravir put a finger to his lips. He moved restlessly in his seat and patted his hand with the blade of the hatchet.

Tiyan still wanted to inquire further, but then, he heard it. That was what awoken him, tearing into his dreams like a dagger.

A howl. Not a wolf. It was deep, low and guttural sound. A howl of something much more predatory.

And a song. It filled the air like a lightning.

It was not a song similar in any case to the one Alina was singing. It was deep and heavy, a tombstone over a living person. Emotionless, cold, cruel like eternal winter. It washed over the woods like a sharp knife slicing the flesh in half, it seemed like the closer it got, the more heavy the air was becoming, like pressed with hard stone.

It was the song of the High Fae. Nothing could be so powerful, even hundred of hundreds of lesser folk.

“You are really important to them, son,” Gravir gazed at Tiyan.

“I don’t know why” Tiyan pressed his teeth, but he knew why, or at least suspected it, on the very shallow surface. They wanted him, yes, not the lesser folk. The High Fae, whatever brewed in their sick minds.

“Yet, they are here. At least one.”

Tiyan looked pale. But that didn’t stop Gravir from telling the truth.

“We will fight. But I don’t know how we make it.”

Tiyan slowly, very slowly took the knife from the table. His hands were shaking, but his voice was not.

“We will fight.”

Gravir nodded. There was nothing that was right enough to say at this moment.

They will fight.

Or they will die.

If they have luck.

They both opened the door, at unison. The snow fell inside, and quickly covered the closest boards. The song started to lower, to again go into the howl, this time so close. So fucking close.

Tiyan felt as the hair on his arms and hair stand up from worry… and something else. Which was not particularly unpleasant but was tearing its way through his head like a frantic weasel.

And in the same moment, when they left the house, watching around with sharpened senses and expressions moulded in steel, it hit them with sheer beauty and horror, with strength of the stars and moons.

Hard.

Mercilessly.

A wave of awe, love and fear entered through their skin, to veins, just into the marrow. It was so strong that Tiyan almost lost balance.

It was beautiful. Beautiful like a fresh breeze in the chilly morning. Like a first kiss under the hidden grotto, paving its way to something more.

Tiyan fell in love in the song, but mostly, in the one who sang.

He was lost.

He was doomed.

He was still holding the knife, which now trembled in his hand, ready to fall and disappear in the snow.

“It’s not the High Fae!” he heard the frantic scream of his father, but it didn’t matter. He wanted just to fall into embrace of the one who lured him in. Peace. Eternal peace. Like death.

But calmer.

It was not a High Fae… that’s good, he thought. That’s good, yes? He thought it was good. Very.

“It’s a Bean Sidhe!”

But Gravir’s scream was muffled by the silence.

Carried into death’s embrace by the peaceful snow…

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Stolen

we stole the light from your eyes [ pushing it deep into the black soil ]
we took the breath from your lungs [ filling them with snow ]

[ we took you into realm of joy and blood
sweet forgetfullness and looming darkness
pressing your soul into the forest floor
mirages and colors
saccharine grins ]

we stole the bright smile from you lips
black roots and sharp branches
reaching deep into you
tearing their way to your heart

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ATOM: Do Not Turn Back – I

Mina was tangled in branches, which protruded from the tree, her snow-touched skin was pale… but there was no blood. No wounds.

She was not wounded.

Tiyan started frantically releasing her from her prison. Branches at first were closing over her body, but his effort bore fruits – they started to let her go, like the spells that animated them weakened. She was cold, so cold, he had no idea how long she was outside without thick clothes protecting her from the icy wind. She fell into his arms, her lips paler than skin, which made his heart clenched with worry.

But she was not wounded. They toyed with him in his dreams.

He heard a noise, a branch cracked and he turned frantically, expecting faeries to be there, watching as he struggled. But there was nothing, only the wind. Wind which was becoming stronger and was biting deeper.

He took her in his arms and carried her to their house, his feet barely keeping balance on the snow. He was relieved that she was not dead, but he knew it’s not the end. They won’t stop. He was painfully aware of that. He once almost fell, when he stumbled on a root, but keeping Mina close, he managed to keep his fumbling feet in rule. Gazing once more at the dark woods, he entered the house, the wind splashing against the closed door with full force.

He delicately laid her on the armchair and started swiftly preparing something warm to drink. He tossed the herbs she got from Dolsa into the mug and put the kettle on the stove. Then, returned to Mina and began to rub her arms and legs to help the circulation flow.

If he was able, now, he would send some fae to the pit where they crawled from.

“Tiyan…” she murmured and blinked at him. His eyes, brown, like his own, were filled with resignation, which he heard in her voice before.

“I am here, Mina” he uttered, taking her face in his hands. “No one will ever do that again” he really hoped it didn’t sound fake.

“The fairies… they… gave me something…”

Tiyan felt as the wave of cold washes over him. He heard about the fae gifts. Enchanted, dark gifts. No one should ever take anything from them, but most often, they had no choice. They were an equivalent of being under their spell. The gifts could bring immense luck, but it quickly was becoming a torment, a magic which takes much more than it gives.  Nothing was free in the fairy world. Humans now were more wary and were not eager to take anything by free will. But… there always was another way.

He almost stopped her hand, when she started to pull something from under her shirt.

“No, Mina…”

“I must give it to you” she pressed and he gave in. With a darkened expression, he watched as she pulled… a pendant. A silver rune, with black cord.

“They said… it’s for you.”

Tiyan unwillingly took it in his fingers. The metal was cold in his fingers, the strange engravement on the surface. He lifted it closer, to inspect. An uncanny animal, swallowing its own tail, looking at him with almost human eyes, on half human, half feral face. Tiyan felt as his heart skipped a beat and traveled to his throat.

He knew that sign.

“What did they say?” He heard the water being ready and putting a large blanket on Mina’s arms, tucking in her cold feet and quickly prepared a hot herbal tea, which he handed to her. She slowly took the beverage and started to drink, with small, timid sips.

“They said… Tiyan, I don’t know…”

“Please. I must know” he was almost afraid that he is pushing too hard, after all what she went through. But she took it much better than he ever would. She was braver, stronger than him.

“They said that the shadow awaits you and… that your soul doesn’t belong to you anymore.”

Shadow. The shadow the fairies mentioned back then, in the forest.

Alina Markon had to hear the noises because she entered the room, with her silver hair looking windswept, eyelids heavy. When she saw Mina, tucked in the blanket, with almost blue lips and pale skin, she rushed to her. Her deep worry was visible clearly on her worn-up face. 

Still remembering his dream, Tiyan started to suspect, that Mina is enchanted and her strength comes from being under a fey spell. The fey magic was dangerous, but as anything spellbound, could dissipate after some time. He was aware that only High Fae could use magic that doesn’t disappear after time. Small folk, as dangerous as they were, were more limited. But they were enough powerful to make a living nightmare from his life.

“What happened?” a fear in Alina’s voice, when she was inspecting her daughter, with trembling hands checking her skin for wounds and for worse, deeper injuries. She turned to Tiyan, with mute question painted on her face.

“They took her. I found her in the trap made of branches” the voice caught up in his throat.

It’s your fault.

They are after you.

Alina had to think the same, but she was last to blame anyone. Tiyan knew she didn’t blame him, that she didn’t even think of doing so. But he blamed himself tenfold. If he just died, none would suffer. They would not torment them all now, they would not even know about Mina.

Mina slowly sipped the tea, while Alina sat next to her, additionally warming her with her own body. She didn’t ask more. It was obvious that it was not the end. Tiyan, filled with sickening guilt, pretending that he had to check locks in the backyard – which was partially true – scurried from the room. The pendant was heavy in his hand.

He knew this sign so well.

He had it since he remembered, engraved on his own skin. A scar that looked like it was burned in his flesh. Just on his chest, under the heart.

He closed his eyes. He didn’t dare to throw away the pendant, so he hid it deep in his pocket. The night was already crawling through his life.

And it didn’t begin during that moment, when the fairies hunted him down.

He checked the backyard door – they were safely locked – and supported himself over them. He felt like a coward, and he hated himself fo that. If they come, he won’t run again. He will face them. They said he is protected. He will try to spread this protection over his family.

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Threads [ Just Pull ]

[ Lorian’s POV ]

you drip with my shadows
every crack filled; skin embraced by the hungry night
your heart and soul beat at unison
with the wild drum of my enchantment
deep into your bones
deep into your flesh
deeper into the marrow
to dissolve inside, sinking in your nerves
like a promise of rain after a long drought

do you feel me now?
bathed in darkness
I pull the shivering threads of light

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I may rewrite prologue too. I feel darker and darker [ curiouser and curiouser ].

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ATOM: The Fear Within – V

He always had nightmares. Very vivid ones, very… touchable. Like he could feel the coarse, cold and metallic texture of theirs. They always revolved around his family. How they survive, if something happens to him on the hunt. Of course, his father could hunt as well, he was much more experienced. But his right leg wasn’t good enough, an old scar coming through muscle, slowing him down.

This night, as two previous ones, Tiyan was afraid to fall asleep. Night meant darkness and darkness attracted monsters. He was aware that his house, made of wood, won’t be a problem for the fey kind. Glass windows were merely a nuisance, wood, old and maybe solid, but the fey had spells, which could lure him out. He would go willingly, and that scared him most.

He was slowly losing his mind, which, for him, happened very fast. But for the first time as well, he escaped the fairy clutches and didn’t know what they really wanted from him.

He would prefer them come, even if that meant fight, or death. Acting was always better than waiting. He was used to acting, to tearing life from the world, which was trying to push him to the ground. Waiting for looming danger was like allowing to be hunted, not being a hunter himself.

Each night he was promising he wouldn’t sleep, and each night he was knocked off his feet by simple tiredness. He was awake in the morning, looking at woods lighted up by the faint, winter sun and wondered, how long it will take before his questions will be answered. Maybe a year? A year, living in constant fear.

Tonight, he managed to stay up until midnight. But that was enough for his tired body and he simply collapsed on the chair, hands hanging on the sides, and open mouth.

The moonlight seemed to cocoon him up, in a bubble of light. And Tiyan entered the dream realm, which soon will make him trash and scream.

Mina was carried somewhere.

Carried by enemies, tangled in vines, in a cacophony of laughs, which reminded him of his own incident in the woods. Tiyan ran after her, ran fast, but the grass seemed to catch his feet, like wanted to swallow him and bury in black soil.

Mina cried and cried, sometimes it looked like he was close,  but then, he heard her from a different direction, he tried to go there, and then grass again was opening its gaping mouth.

“Poor boy, poor man!” he heard mocks but they mixed with Mina’s screams and soon he couldn’t place which is which. He stopped, not knowing where to go, panic bubbling in his chest.

“Poor boy” he suddenly heard just near his ear. Something, a power of unknown kind, forced him to look at the ethereal wonder that was hanging in the air, just next to him.

The woman was tiny, even smaller than a cat. Her beautiful, opalescent wings looked like glitter in the darkness, shining with light which seemed to come from within her. Her face was perfection incarnate, a triumphant smile dancing on her lips, when she was stiffling a laughter.

She wore nothing that could hide her body, she was bare under a thin gossamer dress.

“Poor boy, can’t save the sister, must be disappointed with himself.” she laughed, the other laughters joining her from the darkness.

“Release her, I will do whatever you want me to” said Tiyan, trying to not feel cold sweat trickling down his back.

“Release her?” her big eyes opened wide. “Why? We are having so much fun.”

“Please… just, do not harm her.” Tiyan shivered at the word “fun”.

“But she was already tasted, very young and delicious.”

Tiyan forced himself to not scream, that would only show his weakness before the fey. Tasted. Tasted. Tasted, it rang in his head, with a bell-like sound.

“Please, I know it’s me who you want.”

“He is tasty too. But protected. Protected, so we can’t feed on him.” laughed the tiny fey. “But we still can drink the fear, drink the despair. LOOK.”

His head snapped back and the same force as before, made him turn again and then, his throat clenched, his muscles tensed, his whole being wanted to just disappear.

Mina was held in a cage made of vines, roots were closing around her like a trap and Tiyan couldn’t even see her through them. Yet, the trail of blood leading to the vined prison, was obvious enough, to guess, that he can’t count on her safety. Then he heard a muffled voice, a silent cry from the trap, and his skin crawled. The vines around her seemed to move and rustle, squeezing her even harder, more blood trickled between the crevices.

They fey around her giggled and looked at him with intensity. Sick enjoyment in their eyes.

“Please, no…” he uttered and this time, turned back, by his own will.

“It’s me! It was me, who you wanted! It’s me who escaped. Why do you do this?” but he knew why.

Because they wanted to.

Because they could.

Because nothing could stop them.

“He wants to save her?” grinned the winged woman. “So, he wakes up. Maybe he will make it in time.”

Tiyan suddenly opened his eyes, Wide, like not believing he is here, not in this nightmarish place from before. The moonlight danced on the walls, everything slept – his house, his family… even the woods slept, dreaming rotten dreams.

But he remembered the fey’s words.

Mina.

Maybe he will make it in time.

He caught the clothes, fast, faster than lightning, wore the boots and even faster left his room. Nothing indicated that something wrong was going on, even Tiyan’s dog slept with righteous sleep. But Tiyan felt, just felt, this is not going to end well.

He ran into Mina’s room, and his heart skipped a beat. The bed was empty. Fumbling, he rushed to search for her in the house, but she wasn’t there as well and Tiyan already knew that she left the house, because fairies lured her out. She would never go outside at night, she knew how dangerous it was.

He fell from the house and running forth, he called his sister, with more and more fear in his voice. He didn’t dare to lose the house from sight, not now, but he tossed around between the trees, like a maddened hare.

“Mina!”

He felt as his body refused to work, his breath ragged, his hands trembling, his mind writing scenarios of death and pain.

“Mina!! For goddess’ sake!”

The darkness looked thick, even with moon shining above him and he knew, he really knew, it all was planned.

Something you cherish the most. They know your nightmares. And biggest fears.

“Tiyan…”

He heard it only, because the woods were silent, like a pillow made of softest feathers.

Her voice was muffled. Resigned.

He didn’t want to turn back. He knew that everytime he turns back, he sees horrors.

But he had to.

And he did.

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ATOM: The Fear Within – IV

The night passed slowly. Very slowly. Then the day came, lit by the faint sun, the fog raised from the lake and the woods looked like draped with thick spiderwebs. Tiyan felt a throbbing, dim pain of fear in his heart, that he was able to tame enough, to not show it to his family.

But they knew, of course they knew. They always knew. He would be naive if he believed it isn’t so. But was glad that they allowed him to keep it in himself, buried under shallow earth.

Alina Markon would never give her son to fairies. That was out of the question. His father straight up opposed it. Mina wasn’t even aware, what happens in the minds and hearts of others. And Korr, Tiyan’s dog, slept, with a dreamless sleep.

Tiyan eventually wore the warm clothes, scarfs and heavy boots, and went, slowly, like a mourning procession, to carry the remaining meat to the old mer’s house. Mer died during the war, his sons -too. Only his old wife and their daughter occupied the once important house. They were unable to hunt, never were taught this trade. A nasty thought entered Tiyan’s mind, that if he was sent to the woods, to die there, these women wouldn’t rely on him anymore. Others of course could help them and probably would, but they were living through their own silent nightmare. Only Tiyan seemed to care enough. The current world brought to life hard, remorseless people. But… he liked to feel needed. By his family and by others too. It was helping him too, to more accept the current life.

The snow muted his steps, as he passed the silent people. They sometimes were nodding at him, but mostly, kept to themselves. Only one woman stopped after he passed her, and looked after him, with a smile.

“Tiyan?”

He stood in the mid step, like paralyzed.

“Noyd.”

They tried something together, not that long ago. Filling the empty void that was sucking life from the village. They desperately sought warmth, understanding, and even pleasure, fast and painful in its bitter truth. They latched to each other, like snow to the trees. Drinking sweetness that seemed forbidden, when all was falling apart.

She would love it to continue. Tiyan… couldn’t.

Now, he was so glad that it was in the past. If they still were together, the lesser folk would know. And do something he would be unable to unsee.

They stared at each other. Untold things hang between them, heavy, difficult. Tiyan shook his head.

“I think it would be better going” he uttered. He would be better indeed. His mind maybe was not open before fairies anymore… but who knows what they read in his thoughts. Maybe finished unhappy love… or maybe something more… tasty.

What an awful word. Awful and wrong.

He saw disappointment in her green eyes.

“Perhaps we could…”

“Perhaps” he buried his gaze in the package with meat he was holding.

“So…”

“Yes.”

“Go. Do not let them wait. Because they wait, yes?”

“Them—?” he quickly realized that she meant mer’s family. Of course, them. Not the hungry night.

She walked off, her thick trousers’ legs wet from snow, her woolen hat put tightly on her long, copper hair. Tiyan inhaled and slowly exhaled the air, which took the form of a cloud made of breath.

There go my choices. Perfect.

The mer’s wife welcomed him with a weak smile, an old woman from a good house, which already was unused to a small village life. What was happening now, was draining her like a leech. Her hair were still brown though, not white, like his mother’s. She never saw a war first-hand. She never fought with spells of the High Fae. She never was captured. But she looked weaker and more afraid than Alina, like not experiencing all of this made her even less prepared for this kind of life.

“Where is Soira?”

“Still sleeping. She still fights with the sickness from last month.”

“Tell her I asked how she feels.”

“I will.”

“The meat it salted. So it kept you both going for longer.”

“We appreciate.”

He handed her the package and allowed her to invite him for a thin tea made of herbs. No one was doing and mixing herbs like Dolsa Reinard.

She made him one glass, took the second herself and slowly started to drink, a tea made on snow. Tiyan sipped too. It was really good.

“So… anglor” she smiled at him meekly.

“Yes” Tiyan returned the smile. “All seem to know what I bring them. Am I so predictable?”

“Yes. But that’s not a bad thing. Thanks to that, you always come back to us.”

Tiyan was never good at receiving compliments. Perhaps, because he had low self-esteem. Or because he thought that he always does things wrong, especially when he tried hard. And therefore he must try harder than others, because good won’t find him as easily as them.

“I know. You don’t  like that” Dolsa laughed. A kind, motherly laughter. “But that is true. You have a good heart, Tiyan Markon.”

“I…” he lost his words completely.

“You know that, deep down your heart. You judge yourself too harshly. Perhaps, it would be good, if you gave another chance to that girl. I see how you look at her. Or rather, how you don’t look.”

Tiyan suddenly started to feel like falling under the floor would be a better thing than hearing praises. He almost stood up, but Dolsa put her old hand on his own.

“Do not go.”

Tiyan plumped heavily. His heart sank. Do not go. A word that appeared in his nightmares way too often.

“Talk to me. I see something burdens you, something heavy. Would you tell me?”

But Tiyan couldn’t tell. Couldn’t and didn’t want to. The compliments warmed him up and gave him hope, even if he was unused to them, even if he refused to acknowledge them. But if she heard how he endangered his family, and a village, they would stop falling on his heart, replaced by acid of disappointment and scorn.

But he stayed.

And talked.

About everything, but not himself.